|May 11, 2012||Posted by C.C. @ I'm On My Way under Five Minute Friday|
Linking up today with Five Minute Friday where you write for 5 minutes about the word for today and then publish without editing or perfecting.
The first thing to enter my mind when I saw the word identity was that song from several years ago called “Who I Am”. You know the one where she talks about being someone’s granddaughter, being the image of her father, and her mama being her biggest fan.
For me, my identity has shifted quite a bit in the last year. A year ago at this time, I was a hospital chaplain. I was involved in ministry. I loved working with patients and families. I hated the long hours and lost sleep involved in being a resident, but I loved my work. But my health was going downhill fast. I was in a wheelchair unable to walk the short distances between patient rooms. My last day as a hospital chaplain was August 31.
Now, my days center around trying to get rest and distracting myself from the chronic pain. While I am still all of the things mentioned in my tagline, a Christ follower, wife, Mamma, and fibromyalgia fighter, the fighter has had to really step up as I try to figure out a new normal.
But, you know what? I miss being a chaplain. I miss ministering! I miss saying prayers over the cribs of sick newborns and sitting with families as they awaited the news of their loved ones. I miss preaching and leading worship services. I miss having colleagues that cared about their work as much as I did.
I miss what I thought my life was going to look like. I’m grieving and wondering if and how I am going to be able to minister in the future. The blink of an eye and everything changes!
What about you? What do you have to say about identity in 5 minutes? If you link up, let me know. I’d love to read your post.